Last night i focused on the magician card in the tarot. Funny, would have expected Merlin and Gandalf instead found myself standing in the magicians spot channeling energy and feeling myself blocked at first and later more successful. The only frustrating thing was that i was hoping to ask for some direction only to find that the direction needs to come from myself. *sigh*
I am but am not
I hang five on the wave that never collapses
The uncertainty doesn’t bother me
The paradox can be paradoctored
It is I that decide
Ignoring the ten doors that lead to 10 kingdoms
I seek beyond the veil
facing the nightmares that make me i
until i find the not i through which the world changes.
Only if it matters not where i go or whether i go
can i continue
for if it matters then the matter contains me
and it is my will not to be contained.