Owning My Stuff

 

“You’ve got to know yourself. You’ve got to know what ignites your magic, what fires your soul into performing majestic acts of love. You’ve got to know yourself so much that not even a hundred voices will drown yours. You’ve got to own yourself, this journey is all yours. All yours. No one can do it and you decide whenever you are ready to embark on it. Unlearn, learn, master yourself and love yourself or else they will define you and that’s a poisonous kind of life. That’s death.”
— Ijeoma Umebinyuo

 

I will not be a victim. Oh there have been times in my life where I’ve been hurt by the actions or thoughts of another and I have faced betrayal. In some cases I saw it coming and I let it happen anyway. Even when I hadn’t tho I learned to move on. I cannot let myself be haunted and poisoned by the actions of others. I have seen that happen too often. Not that I necessarily forgave them. There is for me a space of acceptance in between acceptance and continued self-victimization from the deeds of another. Not so much “I forgive you” as “It happened. You had your reasons and the script was played out. I hurt but I won’t carry the hurt because neither you nor I deserve it.” Finding this space has been a hard won victory for me. Yet for me to live in the realm of past pain is to deny myself both the present and the future. Likewise I have learned that past triumphs neither guarantees nor entitles me to present and future ones. Each moment is a new test of the spirit that requires coming to it as clean as possible.
Blessings, G

 

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Rainbow GoddessRainbow Goddess by G A Rosenberg

 

Wheel on FIreWheel on Fire by G A Rosenberg

 

2 thoughts on “Owning My Stuff”

  1. Good post! I personally react to the many aphorisms designed to allow us not to take responsibility for ourselves, i.e. “it will all work out eventually!”, or “he/she did the best he/she could!”, or “It is human to forgive, but it is Divine to forget!” Sometimes people, corporations, governments etc. do not do the best we/they can, and sometimes they/we do things, say things, have attitudes and behaviour that are unacceptable. In my eyes, there will always be consequences of action and non-action, but dismissing all active learning possibilities and challenges by telling myself that “it will all work out no matter what” is unacceptable. I want more than that. I want to interact with my environment and contribute to creating an outcome that I believe in and desire; win or lose. And as far as forgetting, well … in my eyes only a fool makes the same mistakes over and over again because he/she refuses to see what kinds of patterns regarding similar situations, reactions, behaviour etc. are forthcoming from ourselves and others. Just my opinion – right here, right now.

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