Hanged Man Reading

IX of Pent
IX of Pentacles
3-Attachment Now
Death (rev)
5-What is Surrendered?
III of Cups (rev)
III of Cups
Comfort Calm
IV of Pentacles (rev)

IV of Pentacles

4-Core Truth
III of Pent (rev)
III of Pentacles
7-What is Given?
Knight of Pentacles (rev)
Knight of Pentacles
8-What is received?
III of Swords (rev)
III of Swords
9-What is revealed, understood, learned?
Page of Cups
Page of Cups


Quoted Interpretations from Eileen Conolly’s Tarot (the first handbook for the Master), Rachel Pollack’s Tarot Wisdom and Book of Thoth by Aleister Crowley Any misquotes or misinterpretations are mine and should not be blamed on the authors

1) Past – IX of Pentacles
“According to some you have all you need. Past Life Memory Is Silent, Yet you know there has to be more”

“You are doing quite well. No need to confide Eventually silent karma will be a reality”

“Do not isolate yourself. Look at possible new interests. A significant meeting within 3 weeks. Follow through. May lead you to a new exuberance.”
“A substantial offer made. If accepted will change your life style. Expect letter / phone call that will cause some excitement”

“possibility to create good life for yourself.”

Nice card to get, tho in the past position…? Hopefully it doesn’t mean these opportunities are past…it could be that the set up for them is in the past. …

2) Future-Death (Rev)
Death (rev) can mean the “holding back of death” “It does not promise a recovery just that life continues'”

:unresolved but continuing”

Hmm with satisfaction in the past and justice being the attachment…What does this mean new opportunities not coming yet life continuing?
It is because of my actions, Tho life itself has been pretty great lately…Or perhaps it is saying that things have already changed and I am not letting the past go. … Certain things that I have enjoyed doing no longer appeal to me yet I still get tempted to do them, fall into old patterns…when really everything I’ve been going for lately is quite different…

3)Present attachment-Justice

Justice in this case is all about honesty–Being able / finding it necessary to look at myself and what appears to be going on around me with as much honesty as I can muster even if it means stepping back a few steps.
So putting what the cards are telling me so far… My obsession with self-honesty will cause an opportunity that comes to go by tho it should be taken as it appears the status quo is not working for me. (I keep hearing Neil Patrick Harris as Dr Horrible saying “…because the status is not quo…”

4) Core Truth – III of Pent (rev)

“Complete Study, Research or Aquire Information needed before pursuing your Goal. It is important that you be informed to succeed”

“have patience. Your time will come. Trying to rush things. It doesn’t work that way”

“Wait until you see signs of improvement all around. Impatient approach will show in your attitude. Slow down. Talk is not enough. Someone would like to see”

“Too much too soon. You are being hard on yourself

“Mediocre work, dissatisfaction. Failure to recognize the beauty in everyday life.”

I’ve been jumping for wisdom and enlightenment lately as if it were the brass ring on those old merry-go-rounds from my youth. Well, the way I have tended to jump at most things in my life and then burn out. So much has come to me ; has manifested; i need to let things go more; take things as they come and patiently await with acceptance whatever comes my way. ”

5) What is surrendered? III of Cups (rev)

“Undercurrents, changes. It would be foolish to continue. Unwise to Re-Hash. Situation calls for complete new plan. Don’t react personally”

“Avoid showing reluctance in regard to accepting advice. Prompt action can alleviate obvious pressures”

“The secret is to sever the connection. Need new contact. 21 days begin new financial opportunity. Clear the way. Do not repeat past mistakes. Take a new bold direction. Contact with good friend can give the impetus you need” “Plans for a group activity may fall through” Problems between friends”

Among other things this could be referring to our Oregon trip in August. There seems to be problems arising with our friends whom we are going with. Tho again 21 days, shows up in this reading. Something seems to be heading my way. Tho this need to stay objective, not take things seriously. Coming to the end of a financial cycle. Friends influencing it. This whole reading seems to be about change in the air, and how able i can be to deal with it and go with it at the right time (three weeks)

6) Comfort and Calm-IV of Pentacles (Rev)

“Too many things happening at same time. Busy mind and fraught with problems. Stop Everything. Rest one whole day. Organize start fresh”

“Organize and put on paper what is in your head. You have the right idea but you must relate it to others.”

“Whos Who? Establish this. What’s What? Organize this. Watch the budget! Possibly anxiety regarding money. Still about to step in and solve problems”

“Delays indicated Pressures rising. Action needed now”
Again so much about timing. This seems to say even when action is needed if I am not ready, take the time off to step back and look at it objectively. When I act with confidence , and not out of panic things feel more comfortable for me. I act with more confidence.

7)What is Given? Knight of Pentacles (rev)
“Inertia is one possibility or allowing others to take advantage of you.”

“more change or finding other interests”

OK, let’s go with a meaning I would typically use for Knight of Pent (r)–if right-side up the card refers to the energy of moving concretely one thought at a time…then reversed it could refer to my tendency to be pulled into different directions at once (ie spiritual but then some other interests grab me). Especially with what some of the other cards seem to be saying about the importance of focus.

8) What is received? III of Swords (rev)
“You should make the first move especially if you want to remain in the picture. No rash decisions at this time”

“It is so important that you understand. Someone needs this from you”

“A slip of the tongue can be a lash of truth. Someone is sorry someone hurts. Feel remorse? Repair it. Caused Pain? Heal it. A git of the beautiful amethyst will help to create peace and forgiveness”

“This cycle of experience is now ending. Refer to spread”
This card also refers to being in denial and pushing away grief. it can also refer to getting on with life after a time of mourning
So get right with anyone i need to get right with and move on. Or stay where i am for the new cycle. Tho once more another card referring to the ending of a cycle. This next three weeks may be very interesting indeed

9) What is revealed, understood, learned? Page of Cups
“Within … peacefulness burns a radiant love of the world and all of its history. “

Catalyst for other people’s strength and creativity

“signifies art, especially poetry and the power of prophecy”

So all of the above cycling ends with a new creative cycle where i inspire other people also? Coolness!!! Can’t wait to see what happens next

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

This was a fun movie. For those who have read the book, the movie does not follow quite as closely as other movies in the series and that is to its favour. Instead it sticks to the spirit of the book, taking a few shortcuts here and there but never to the stories detriment. This movie, by necessity felt like less of an ensemble piece than some of the others, concentrating primarily on Harry and Dumbledore. Still lots of fun things and a nice setup for the two part adaption of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Books That I’m Reading or have recently finished

I still find myself shifting between multiple books. Call it Add, Call it a more kaleidoscopic experience. Heck call it Ishmael.

Living in the Heart by Drunvalo Melchizadek– After finishing his Serpent of Light-Beyond 2012 book, I found myself wanting to read everything that Melchizadek has written. His message about where this planet is heading and how to develop spiritually with the planet is that important. Plus Melchizadek writes so vividly about the ceremonies that he has taken part in that the reader is swept along usually in a rather transformational way. Living in the Heart could be one of the most important books that I have read. The guided meditation on the CD is definitely powerful.

Emails From the Universe by Robert Anton Wilson I have been immersing myself in RAW’s lectures and books lately and find the experience enlightening, inspiring, mystifying and downright funny. I find myself alternately laughing, blown away with insight or throughly puzzled in a thought-provoking way. This book is probably the last one published before Wilson left the party in 2007. It is a collection of essays, articles and interviews with and by RAW published over the last 30 years. Wilson intimates at the beginning that reading this book will infect the reader with certain subversive memes. 😉

Turn Coat by Jim Butcher – The One fictional book in the bunch here. The latest in the series of novels by Butcher starring professional wizard, Harry Dresden. The blurbs describe this series as a combination of Buffy and Philip Marlow and that has some truth. My favorite literary guilty pleasure.

Virus of the Mind-The New Science of the Meme by Richard Brodie This book has brought me a lot of enjoyment. A meme , according to Brodie and several others is “a unit of information whose existence influences events such that more copies of itself get created in other minds” . In other words, the way i understand it a thought construct such as a slogan, a piece of music or an idea that once it gets in your head, you start humming it or passing it along. Could be anything from the first notes of Beethoven’s Fifth (DA DA DA DUH) to “Bush is a moron” to “Everything is One” It occurs to me that i definitely need a greater awareness of which memes are running loose in my brain.

A Garden of Pomegranates by Israel Regardie (Edited and Annotated with New Material by Chic & Sabdra Tabatha Cicero A new edition of an old classic. I am intrigued.

Tomorrow-the Hanged Man Reading and hopefully will get the video from Hurricane Ridge finished.


Hmmm…re-turning, turning again, returning back? I suppose two right turns equals a turn around as do two left, at least in Euclidean Geometry. In what way do we turn back when we re-turn? Have there been changes since we left? Almost inevitably. Changes have probably happened both at home and to ourselves internally and externally. I guess, where I seem to be going with all this is “I have had an awesome vacation. My spirits have been lifted. Much has been illuminated for me in terms of my relationships and I have seen wondrous beauty and I feel reluctant to go back. Waa  Waa Waa. Insert baby-crying noises here.

Still will be nice to be in my space with my foster daughter and the pets and Zev will be happy to play videogames again  Plus I am hoping to put together a couple of videos and writing etc. so…

Also, it feels on some real level, like I have internalized Tofino and the peace it has brought me and that that inner calm will be returning with me. So I return as far as I can see, a better man than when I left. Who can ask for more from a vacation than that?


Yesterday (Thursday) was a travel day. Making it from Tofino down to Parksville (where we met our friend Barb for lunch) to Victoria (where we took the ferry across to Port Angeles, WA). Nice sunset from the water, pleasant enough hotel. All good.
Last night, I was journaling a bit. I had to stop as I was getting way too sleepy to continue. The Last thing I wrote was:
“Too sleepy to continue. Tomorrow I will manifest something that will make all our hearts leap for joy. Happiness is a choice.”

Today we got up. Aaron and Zev wanted to do the Twilight movie thing so we went to the bookstore where Bela buys a book and we went to the restaurant where Bela and Edward had their first date. Not Joy inducing stuff but all fine.

Then we decided that rather than go directly to Forks (apparently both the rain and vampire capital of Washington), we woul d drive up to Hurricane Ridge

Well lads and lassies, Hurricane Ridge is one of the most amazing awe-inspiring places I’ve seen. It’s an 18 mile winding trip up narrow roads to the top but the views…
Mountains of trees with the ocean off in the distance
Rare wild flowers you don’t see growing anywhere else
Grouse and Eagles and Seagulls flying across the sky
At the end of the trip, we were a mile above sea level. The view was astonishing. There was the rare patch of snow on the ground, just enough that anyone who passed it who had a mine too (me and Zev 🙂 ) could make snow balls and throw them at each other. Deer would come within 2 feet of you and just kind of graze at the grass while we and they watched each other.
Beautiful trees, Beautiful sun. Friendly people from all over.
We left there with a song in our hearts for sure. 😉

Whatever shall we manifest for tomorrow?
How about something beautiful and spirit-inspiring?

Nights of Magic

Considering that it had been overcast all day, last night was surprisingly clear. The moon was full and beautiful. My friend in South California, Michael on occasion talks about the wings of the moon (he is a poet, a visionary and an awesome friend, tho we have never met face-to-face) and I always imagined them as wispy cherub wings but last night I actually perceived them as huge angelic wings spreading out behind the full moon in a most amazing way. I walked underneath her with Rufus on the leash besides me. I was listening to Jonathan Elias’ Requiem for the Americas (Jon Anderson from Yes and from Friends of Mr Cairo does vocals on many of the songs–highly recommended) . The particular song had a line about pulling magic from the sky. I was feeling charged up from the moon, the music, the evening that included the production of poetry and a long online inspiring conversation and the anticipation of the vacation we left on today and just felt this amazing SURGE of ENERGY and connectiveness and I wanted nothing more than to go down to Grimston Park, shuck my clothes and dance sky-clad underneath the light of the full-moon to the beat of drums that  echoed inside of me. Imagining explaining the possible subsequent arrest warrant to Aaron and Zev helped me resist that temptation ;).

Instead I felt part of another vision that corresponded with the middle pillar of the Kabbalah Tree of Live. Feeling the energy from the Moon (Yesond) channeling and grounding itself through me into the Earth (Malkuth). Feeling that the Energy came from the Sun (Tipareth) and the Sun got it from a higher source (Kether) I felt that I was chosen to undergo and be part of this ritual and it felt….right….;)

The trip up here to Tofino today on Vancouver Island was great. It rained and was overcast but there is an energy shift that hits me when I get to Vancouver Island. I feel an overwhelming sense of peace that seems to increase the closer I get to Tofino. The three of us walked on the beach, climbed rocks, played in the sand and swam (in the cabin’s salt water pool). After getting Zev to bed, I went out for a walk on the beach. Despite the moon being full, the sky was too overcast to see her but still on the dark and quiet beach, the waves could be heard, lapping onto shore, the ocean singing its song. The song spoke of enjoying the everyday magic I have in my life and welcomed me. It told me that one key to happiness is the enjoyment and appreciation of what one has. Nice stuff.

Sailing to Paradise

1=1 1/1 1 overcome (response to One Over 2 1/2 by M.N.)

There is no you

There is no me



you called me here

to learn your name

i, part of you

you’d yet to tame

Eye called you here to know myself

the part Eye had not seen

Eye called all others hear as well

to complete the dream

with more parts known

transcended loved

Eye can become the portal

transport myself

beyond space time

Eye am aware immortal 🙂

Happy Independence Day to Americans, My Fellow Ex-pats and anyone else in the mood for some freedom:)

Video of the Day

Redemption Song-Joe Strummer and the Mescaleros

Song and lyrics by Bob Marley

Old pirates, yes, they rob I;
Sold I to the merchant ships,
Minutes after they took I
From the bottomless pit.
But my hand was made strong
By the ‘and of the Almighty.
We forward in this generation
Won’t you help to sing
These songs of freedom? –
‘Cause all I ever have:
Redemption songs;
Redemption songs.

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds.
Have no fear for atomic energy,
‘Cause none of them can stop the time.
How long shall they kill our prophets,
While we stand aside and look? Ooh!
Some say it’s just a part of it:
We’ve got to fulfil de book.

Won’t you help to sing
These songs of freedom? –
‘Cause all I ever have:
Redemption songs;
Redemption songs;
Redemption songs.

[Guitar break]

Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our mind.
Wo! Have no fear for atomic energy,
‘Cause none of them-a can-a stop-a the time.
How long shall they kill our prophets,
While we stand aside and look?
Yes, some say it’s just a part of it:
We’ve got to fulfil de book.
Won’t you help to sing
Dese songs of freedom? –
‘Cause all I ever had:
Redemption songs –
All I ever had:
Redemption songs:
These songs of freedom,
Songs of freedom.