“No person of quality ever remembers social restrictions save when considering how most piquantly to break them.”
― James Branch Cabell
It started in my Junior year of High School. My parents sent me to a private school that had an amazing number of rules that seemed to govern every aspects of our time and behaviour. It seemed so much more restrictive than the public school I had been in the year before. Fairly early on tho I began to gain a new understanding. Because there were so many rules to keep track of, the part of the faculty responsible for discipline were kept on their toes. As in any bureaucratic system the more rules there are, the easier it is to manipulate the system. Because I showed an aptitude for math, they wanted to move me up one class. They told me it was up to me to decide where I felt most comfortable. I could take the lower class third period and have fourth period free or I could take the more advanced class forth period and have the third period free. It really was an easy decision. I told my forth period teacher that I was taking the easier math and the third period teacher, I was taking the advanced class and for three months, I enjoyed a double free period. By the time they had caught up to me and decided to keep me in detention for quite awhile, I had left to see if there was life outside of high school. Five months later when I came back, the heads of the school were rather dumbfounded and allowed me to take two classes during the summer and graduate with my class the next year. To be honest they didn’t know what hit them..
Since then I have learned that breaking and bending rules social and otherwise have consequences, yet not all of them are necessarily negative ones. Its a matter of self-honesty (Bob Dylan said that if you lived outside the law you have to be honest and he was correct) , understanding the reasons why the rules are there in the first place (not all rules are bad–there are as many rules are in place to promote safety as there are rules that benefit the convenience of those in charge). If we rebel for the sake of rebellion only than we are still being controlled by others, in that we are reacting to them rather than following what is right for us. Figuring out what is right for ourselves and following that is of primary importance. Didn’t William Shakespeare say “Above all else to thine own self be true”
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Pulling the Moon by G A Rosenberg
The Beating of Wings by G A Rosenberg
““Music washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life”
When it comes to music, I could just write a page of quotes. Harry Chapin might have said it best- “Music’s been my greatest friend my fiercest foe. Music can take me so high or it can send me so low”. Music has been there for me even at times when I wasn’t. I define different periods in my life by what i was listening to. My high school years getting into complicated lyrics, ELP, Genesis and Led Zeppelin. Then my first exposure to Bob Marley, The Police and The Clash followed by just about anything and everything at one time or another. Singing folk music while walking in between rides made long days of hitchhiking easier. The Answer my friend is blowing in the wind but i don’t want to work on Maggie’s farm no more cause I am a Rock I am an island girl, sure do shine glad I found you glad you’re mine.
Music doesn’t need words and sometimes the right music can replace words, lifts my spirt, lifts my soul. These days I listen to lots of trance and classical tho the old favourites still find their way onto my play list. Music helps me transform my emotions. I find it impossible to stay sad through certain songs. Music helped get my son to sleep (still does at times) and helps me to wake up. Yes. It helps me to wake up in more ways than one. 🙂
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Riddling by G A Rosenberg
“I was so much older then
I’m younger than that now”
..and so I am. This past year I feel like I’ve de-aged, perhaps unlearned some things that might have helped me live one kind of life but not the kind I want to live now. I have been inspired, ignited and taught constantly, as much by myself as by others but so much from others and perhaps I’m finally gaining a sense of priorities. We’ll see where it leads..
A few goals for this next year:
1) I wish to delve into more how I relate to different archetypes. What does it mean to be a warrior? a teacher? a healer? How do I develop further, evoke those sides of myself.
2) Find more ways, preferably through my art and writings to bring more money in financially. Tho computer training is always good.
3) Meditate every day (for longer and longer periods of time)
4) Work on the difference between down time and wasting time.
5) More study time every day would be good also. Hmmm I may have to cut down on my FB time =)
“and if i claim to be a wise man
it surely means that I don’t know”
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Shades of Infinity by G A Rosenberg