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Lost Boy Blues

“Once we believe in ourselves, we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit”
― E.E. Cummings

Whispers from a well
begging for release
soul echoes
aching for surcease
mistakes that have brought him low
longing for but hating days long ago
trying to get through, to be through
to belong, to be strong
to be tough, always wrong
but its never enough
so the coin echoes on its way down
striking walls, striking hells
hasn’t struck fancies
on the bottom he dwells
refuses a hand up, to stand u
to claim that he can
beneath him, can’t reach him
no belief can teach him
his self he’s never met
in the mirror loosing bets
refusing love he cannot trust
so much pressure gonna bust
yet somewhere knowing there’s a sun
somehow knowing the day he’s wong…
— G A Rosenberg

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Blessings, G

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Fire on the Mountain by G A Rosenberg

Petals by G A Rosenberg

Worthy

“Your problem is you are too busy holding on to your unworthiness.”
― Ram Dass

For too long I considered myself unworthy. I felt I was unworthy of the family I was born into. I felt I was unworthy of the intelligence I had and the job I had. I have been given so much without putting that much effort into it that it was easy to feel that way. Some people may see that as a goad to do more, be more, become more. I found it to be a weight that all too nearly collapsed me. My drive wasn’t to accomplish, my drive was to understand. I wanted to learn more and not so much academic subjects. I chafed at that during my years at University all too much and found that I was missing my classes to help friends with theirs that I considered more interesting at the time. In my mathematics and computer courses I was more results driven than method driven which frustrated the teacher’s and ultimately added to my feelings of unworthiness. Each prescribed path I tried turned out to be another round hole to fit my square edges into. I kept looking to find an authority, some one who would tell me how to do it only to realize that I was ultimately looking for another authority to rebel against. Also another chance to prove to myself my own unworthiness.

At some point that changed. I stopped trying to follow any path but my own. On our own path, nobody is unworthy. By following my own path I could show others how to do the same. By following my own path, I have come to realize that the only person who could possibly say whether or not the things I’ve done hold value is myself. If I can live my life and communicate to others that that is our main goal in life, to live it and follow wherever our path leads than worthiness stops being a question. On my own path there is only worthiness.
Blessings, G

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Puppet Show by G A Rosenberg

Iceberg Mandala by G A Rosenberg

Quote of the Day – February 23 2013

“It will do you no harm to find yourself ridiculous.
Resign yourself to be the fool you are…
…We must always take risks. That is our destiny…”
― T.S. Eliot

What would life be without risk? Whether it be in a leap of thought, doing something labeled ‘dangerous’ for the first time, trusting a stranger or sometimes even trusting a friend, trusting our selves, risk becomes part of life. Everytime we choose to love or cry in front of another or even occasionally leave our house (or climb up on a chair or a ladder) we take a risk.
What is it that we risk exactly? Usually when the risk is physical, it results in some kind of fall or injury, When it us an emotional risk we chance damaging some concept of ourselves that we once had. It almost always results in the benefit of greater self-knowledge but usually that is gained only after some type of fall as well. We need these falls at times to understand ourselves better and to be able to see through our delusions. That’s why we put them in our way. If we don’t take risks to better learn who we are than we lose the lesson
Blessings, G

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Cosmic Womb by G A Rosenberg

Energy Chamber by G A Rosenberg

Patterns

“Your self image is your pattern!. Every thought has an activity visualized. Every activity belongs to a pattern. You identify with your pattern or thought. Your patterns leads your life.”
J. G. Gallimore

So then is Gallimore using the word pattern where we we have been seeing the word story used elsewhere? A story told round and round again falls into a pattern weaving its way outwards.

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Parrot Feathers by G A Rosenberg

Heart Mandala by G A Rosenberg