”I acknowledge the privilege of being alive
In a human body at this moment,
Endowed with senses, memories, emotions, thoughts,
And the space of mind in its wisdom aspect.
It is the prayer of my innermost being
To realize my supreme identity
In the liberated play of consciousness,
The Vast Expanse.
Now is the moment,
Here is the place of Liberation.”
–Alex Grey from The Vast Expanse
Since there is not much I can add to the above quote, I will go a bit stream of consciousness and ramble on for a bit. Lately I have been contemplating and discussing with friends a bit what blocks me from going as deep as I can with my writing. Why can I hit a certain level of honesty and sharing and then I veer away sharply? I’ve been circling around this question for awhile and am starting to pinpoint some answers.
Part of it is fear and yes I still have areas of fear that I have not fully integrated yet–I emulate courageousness well and then I stop at the point it touches. my life. Still I have reached new levels of self-honesty. When I tell a story from my past, I might suddenly gain greater insight into what its all about. Having that insight changes my story and thus changes my past. When my past changes, how do I maintain my present. That sounds melodramatic but still feels true, like the glass edges of a wound rubbing
Part of the issue feels like one of safety. This blog is a safe place in which I can speak or so I tell myself. But then i find different levels of safety, at times putting a condom of sorts over my exposed language. It is a prayer of my innermost being to express itself as I express as a human being in this most exciting of times. May it be so.
Blessings, G
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Audience by G A Rosenberg
Undersea Cross by G A Rosenberg