“We do not believe in ourselves until someone reveals that deep inside us something is valuable, worth listening to, worthy of our trust, sacred to our touch. Once we believe in ourselves we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight or any experience that reveals the human spirit.”
― E.E. Cummings
Now can come the revealing. Anyone reading this and anyone not reading this can know that you are worth it. There is that in you that is a star, a deity who is worthy of all the wonderment and joy that this universe offers. You may falter and fall but you will rise again. Because life sometimes throws us curves and sometimes we give into temptations. Sometimes we may do terrible things. That does not make us unworthy, it makes us human. Being human with faults and foibles is something to celebrate. Realizing who we are and our capacities even if we have not lived up to them is happy making. Remember that we are all stars and we all contain universes. Remembering this can help us get through even the darkest nights of our soul and the greyest days.
Blessings, G
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The Woods He Leaves Behind (Zeper) by G A Rosenberg
“Your problem is you are too busy holding on to your unworthiness.”
― Ram Dass
For too long I considered myself unworthy. I felt I was unworthy of the family I was born into. I felt I was unworthy of the intelligence I had and the job I had. I have been given so much without putting that much effort into it that it was easy to feel that way. Some people may see that as a goad to do more, be more, become more. I found it to be a weight that all too nearly collapsed me. My drive wasn’t to accomplish, my drive was to understand. I wanted to learn more and not so much academic subjects. I chafed at that during my years at University all too much and found that I was missing my classes to help friends with theirs that I considered more interesting at the time. In my mathematics and computer courses I was more results driven than method driven which frustrated the teacher’s and ultimately added to my feelings of unworthiness. Each prescribed path I tried turned out to be another round hole to fit my square edges into. I kept looking to find an authority, some one who would tell me how to do it only to realize that I was ultimately looking for another authority to rebel against. Also another chance to prove to myself my own unworthiness.
At some point that changed. I stopped trying to follow any path but my own. On our own path, nobody is unworthy. By following my own path I could show others how to do the same. By following my own path, I have come to realize that the only person who could possibly say whether or not the things I’ve done hold value is myself. If I can live my life and communicate to others that that is our main goal in life, to live it and follow wherever our path leads than worthiness stops being a question. On my own path there is only worthiness.
Blessings, G
Puppet Show by G A Rosenberg 