Seek and You Shall…

If there has been a role in my life that I identify with more than any other, It would be that of seeker. In my teens and early adult years I sought answers. The TRUTH in big letters as if on this plane of existence , there could be A truth and not just a blind man’s take on the proverbial elephant by grabbing the wrong end. Of course to paraphrase that old movie. I couldn’t handle the truth I found. I could learn so much yet find myself a child.

Then I lost myself in the quest of sex. The infinite varieties of pleasure, many of them empty. It seemed somewhere along the way I forgot that joy had all the good stuff. Not that there is anything wrong with physical expression. It is necessary. Tho sex without connection feels empty. Still it was fun while it lasted. It still is

I then shifted my search to self. Gaining understanding by naval gazing. I was a vast subject but still mainly seen in the reflection of the other. Still also seeing others reflected in my self added even more to the picture.

Responsibility, social and other claimed me next. Marriage, Kids, Social Consciousness and activity. It feels great to help others, to fit a role, to belong but what was it I belonged to…? At times my life seemed like a strait jacket made for someone else, with the strings pulling together tighter and tighter…

The kaleidoscope shifted againg.
What do I seek now?
Awakening? Godhead? Meaning? Awareness? Enlightenment? Illumination? Nirvana? Satori? Liberation? Revolution? Evolution? Joy?
All those pretty words and awesome concepts and perhaps they all contain elements of it…or perhaps they are points along the infinite highway there….

“Now entering the highway already in progress”
–Firesign Theatre