Category Archives: Prose Writing

Odd Thoughts in the Black Sun’s Light (March 2018)


“We wanderers, ever seeking the lonelier way, begin no day where we have ended another day; and no sunrise finds us where sunset left us. Even while the earth sleeps we travel. We are the seeds of the tenacious plant, and it is in our ripeness and our fullness of heart that we are given to the wind and are scattered.”
— Kahlil Gibran


Learn to be alone without loneliness
To feel every emotion without action or dwelling
and in action be swift, on-point,
and merciless in execution.


On instinct, I mistrust those who speak of self-knowledge and then express new age platitudes of beauty and sunshine. At our core there is beauty but ugliness and venom as well. There is selfishness, greed, love, violence, power, wrath and everything else conceivable. Acting like its not there won’t change it. Acknowledging, even honouring it makes us if not whole, more wholly ourselves.
Of course when it comes down to it, the snapshot of ourselves matters not nearly as much as that we become…


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A Tableau Within by GAR


Black Sun Ascending by GAR


Expansion of Understanding (February 2018)

“Religion is the emulation of the adult by the child. Religion is the encystment of past beliefs: mythology, which is guesswork, the hidden assumptions of trust in the universe, those pronouncements which men have made in search of personal power, all of it mingled with shreds of enlightenment. And always the ultimate unspoken commandment is ‘Thou shalt not question!’ But we question. We break that commandment as a matter of course. The work to which we have set ourselves is the liberating of the imagination, the harnessing of imagination to humankind’s deepest sense of creativity.”
— Frank Herbert


The universe is non-simultaneously apprehended”
― R. Buckminster Fuller


By non-simultaneously apprehended, Fuller meant that the universe was too big to be understood all at once by us contained within it. Even if everything that is in the universe is in us microcosmically. If you add to that the unending void that the universe springs from, the possibility of anyone holding the complete and unquestionable truth (never mind being able to understand it) becomes impossible.
There is always more to learn, new gnosis to gain and old worn out ideas to discard. Avoid like the plague those who would feed your inner laziness by offering you the children’s model that they hold as absolute, especially if they ask you to take it on faith. (In my experience when someone asks you to take something on faith, they do not offer lube to ease it in but that is neither here nor there. Explore and question your knowledge, your beliefs, your gnosis and your understanding being willing to discard it all or any of it for a better model. You will find help along the way. Seek to know and act creatively reaching to expand and ascend and become. I know of no more worthwhile endeavor.


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Gem From Beneath by GAR


Holding the Space (redux) by GAR


Spatial Extremities (redux) by GAR


Gnosis (February 2018)


“As understanding deepens, the further removed it becomes from knowledge.”
― C.G. Jung


“Enlightenment is a destructive process. It has nothing to do with becoming better or being happier. Enlightenment is the crumbling away of untruth. It’s seeing through the facade of pretense. It’s the complete eradication of everything we imagined to be true.”


I used to be a seeker after knowledge. More and more I seek understanding. That doesn’t mean that I will discard any knowledge I come across in my travels. In many ways it is the trade currency that will gain more understanding. In order to understand something deeply, old knowledge has to be cast off. This makes sense in a way, for what is knowledge but a snapshot of how a certain subject looked at a certain moment in time. Understanding feels more dynamic however.


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Answers Forthcoming (redux) by GAR


In the Eye by GAR


A Successful Working (redux) by GAR


Far From Normal (February 2018)


I find I have a gut reaction towards the word normal. Normal? Normal? Normal would equate to what one experiences most of the time. Think about that for a moment. Who wants to experience the same thing most of the time? Even the best of everything when it becomes routine would cause most to find something less enjoyable to break that routine if nothing else. Anything when it becomes normal becomes something to get away from!
I seriously rebel against anything ever becoming routine. One of the worse things that can happen to a practitioner in my opinion is when their ritual practice becomes normal… when they can do rituals in their sleep… because then passion becomes lost and ritual without passion is empty.. That is just one example of what I mean.
I believe that applies to every aspect of our life. As soon as we start sleepwalking through it.. it loses meaning… thus I will always rebel against the normal
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Nara-Guhs by GAR


Serpentine-Rebirth by GAR


Through Flames, Gnosis by GAR


Blessing, Curse or Challenge (January 2018)


The basic difference between an ordinary man and a warrior is that a warrior takes everything as a challenge while an ordinary man takes everything as a blessing or a curse.
–Carlos Castaneda


Yes, I know I’ve used this quote on my blog more than once before. To me tho, this epitomises such an important principle that I see so many overlooking. Where we are and where we find ourselves in our lives is the present state of things. Were we lucky so far to bring us here? It doesn’t matter. What matters is where we go from here. Were we cursed by someone (enemies, random malice, the gods, demons, fate) and is that what brought us here? It doesn’t matter.
Here to me are the essential questions. Where are we and where do we wish to be? What strengths do we have to get from point a to point b? What is holding us back? What resources do we have? How do we expand our resources and our strength. How we got here ultimately doesn’t matter half as much as how do we move on with the challenges we have?
As each new day or new event arrives, both positive and negative things will happen. New challenges present themselves yet the questions remain the same? How do we get from where we are to where we are going? How do we meet these challenges? If we get caught up in the whys instead of the hows, it becomes a matter of blame or seeking restitution and ultimately brings us no farther (indeed the resources we have will be caught up in either blame / revenge or worse yet excuses and despair). Few have time for that bullshit. I know I do not


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To Speak Answers by GAR


Phoenix Rising From Destruction (redux) by GAR


To Put Out the Stars by GAR


Watching Chaos Descend (January 2018)


“Dualism means to look upon all as black and white, which is viewed by Satanism as a cosmic delusion.
Paradox means to look upon all as something contradictory and absurd, but just as well true and real. Which is viewed by Satanism as a chaotic harmonization”
–Vexior 218, Panparadox


I have come to disbelieve in absolutes. As I watch more and more people becoming polarized in their views both politically and spiritually to the point where it seems difficult to not only entertain opinions that are contradictory but to cut off the people who hold them as totally and completely as they can. Less and less is there a consideration that two seemingly-contradictory things can both hold truth. I find the absurdity of this viewpoint to be hilarious.
Only a few years ago, people were quoting Bruce Lee “Be like water”, left and right. They embraced examining one’s views and self-reflection. Yet with very little effort, that changed. Never before have I seen so many people unwilling to move beyond their own limited sense of right and wrong. So delusional and so funny. Ultimately I don’t see embracing either the left or the right (either politically or spiritually) as being half as destructive as this unwillingness to bend, to embrace paradox, to be even somewhat open to other possibilities. It is the polarization of people and beliefs that will push us over the brink. Personally I would rather embrace the chaos of a multiplicity of viewpoints than the ultimate stagnation and destruction that comes from unyielding tunnel vision.


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She Watches in the Depths by GAR


Attendance by GAR


Sib-Li by GAR


Seduction, Protection, Death and Rebirth (January 2018)


Every being we invoke (or evoke) for that matter has their reflection in our own being. This does not mean that they do not exist outside of ourselves. Indeed true connection happens, in my experience, when that inner aspect provides a gateway to the external being or archetype using our rituals as a gateway.


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Abu-Fays by GAR


Staif (Blackthorn) by GAR


Thanatos and Rebirth by GAR