Hermit Wisdom Reading

1-What is the Hermit’s secret?
IX of Pentacles (rev)

IX of Pentacles

 2-What is the Hermit’s light?
VIII of Cups (rev)

VIII of Cups

 3-What does the light reveal?
The Lovers
The Lovers
4-What three questions does the

Hermit want us to ask?

 a) The High Priestess
RWHighPriestess		 b) Knight of Pentacles (rev)
Knight of Pentacles		 c) King of Wands
King of Wands

Interpretation

What is the Hermit’s Secret? IX of Pentacles (rev)

“lack of discipline, low regard for yourself but also spontaneity over long-term goals”; “Feeling extremely alone-would like to venture and try to communicate”

Before I expanded my online presence (FB, SR, Twitter, Youtube, etc…) I was feeling cut off… Aaron’s career was taking off. Zev’s needs were keeping me home. I felt like I couldn’t make long-term plans for myself, then I expanded my presence (writing more, meeting more people with similar goals and intentiond, making and deepening friendships)

What is the Hermit’s light? VIII of Cups(rev)

“This energy is diminishing”; “Rest is needed” “Karmic circumstances can make a positive change in your life. Take control. Be honest with yourself. “Stop negotiating”; “Look at your obligations full on. They must be dealt with”; “You don’t have to explain because someone wants you to”; “Changing the patterns of relationships”

Hmmmm, well let’s see. In the past while I have definitely been chafing at the bit a lot in my relationships with my family (Aaron and Zev) I have had the insight that they are the source of my strength but no one has said that either marriage or fatherhood were easy choices. I believe that the Hermit’s light is to deal with it all honestly (with new eyes) as my blog last night said and stop negotiating or settling for less than what I want or need.
The light is:

  • Self-honesty
  • Presence
  • Confidence
  • Letting my freak flag fly 😉

It is also shining out who you are-living up to obligations but not disguising yourself to suit another’s needs.

What does the light reveal? The Lovers

“First of all, it signals love”; Other meanings may apply, especially choice”; “Another possible meaning is adolescence or a person coming to a whole new level of themselves” “Finally it can mean a person in harmony with his or her various selves”

I choose the final meaning there 😉 The light of self-harmony of shining out myself to myself and others is helping me harmonize my various questions. Being in love and loving myself and the universe 🙂


4-What 3 questions does the hermit want us to ask?

  1. The High Priestess
  2. Knight of Pentacles (rev)
  3. King of Wands

Could you please restate those in the form of a question? 🙂

  1. When/How/Where (especially with school out for the summer do I carve the time/space for myself to meditate/ write / make videos / go within?
  2. “inertia allowing others to take advantage of you” “Taking more chances or finding other interests”
    How do I shine myself out (commit myself to) being myself enough that I don’t put other people first?
  3. “A very confident figure. He may be impatient with those who think or act too slowly, who cannot keep up with him, or face his tendency to take charge. He has no guile, however or ill will, just a powerful energy”
    How can I manifest in myself the confidence to express who I am without any masques or games?

Because the Past…

Lately things seem to be revving up faster and faster. I feel like I’m surfing some kind of strange energy wave. It feel fun and exciting and I don’t want to overanalyze it too much. I’m feeling much too good to fall prey to the centipede’s dilema

Tonight I asked for guidance before walking Rufus and drew a card (When I say asked for guidance, i don’t mean from God, it was more a general asking from the universe, from the earth, from my higher-self.) The card I drew was IV of Cups. Eileen Conolly’s key for that card is “DO NOT REINFORCE YOUR FEELINGS BY SEPARATING YOURSELF FROM WHAT YOU CAN BE. TO BREAK THIS PATTERN, ENJOY YOUR POTENTIAL.” from the First Handbook for the Master

So armed with that, I took the dog for a walk. As has been happening more and more often lately, one of those fortune cookie type messages came bubbling into my brain.

Break Past Patterns. Look at everything as if you were doing it for the first time without any assumptions of what its going to be like. Talk to everybody you know as if they were someone new whom you really want to get to know. If any thoughts involving past patterns comes up ie “He always treats me this way” or “This always happens” feel it, look at it , recognize the feeling as being a programmed past pattern and move on.
🙂 <3

Strength Reading

1-How am I strong? VI of Wands VI of Wands
2-How am I weak? VI of Swords (rev) IV of Swords
3-When do I need to be strong? IX of Wands IX of Wands
4-When do I need to be weak? VII of Wands VII of Wands
5-What strengthens me? X of Pentacles X of Pentacles
6-What weakens me? X of Wands ]X of Wands

How am I strong? VI of Wands” Passion, Romance or shared enthusiasms. Situations that are exciting and harmonious at the same time. Confidence and optimism, the ability to inspire others” Well, cool, sounds like a good program to run. OK this is how i am. Confident, optimistic, Inspiring and Passionate. Sounds like part of the Merlin program I am running

How am I weak? IV of Swords(rev)” Confusion over whether or not to intervene in a situation. Intuitive thinking rather than logic””Too soon to involve others, Don’t repeat mistakes””Wise to stay away from other people’s problems. Things will settle down soon” Ok, that makes too much sense. I tend to want to be helpful and I need to accept that everyone is responsible for their own universe. I am belittling them by trying to intervene even if they ask me too. Especially when I can sense what is going on for the other person (well they do express part of myself otherwise I wouldn’t be aware of the situation)

When do I need to be strong? IX of Wands” Courage and Strength in a tense situation.” Don’t Leave yourself open to criticism, check your plans carefully””Take a broader view, encompass the problems, see it as others might” So when planning, I need to check things over so I can have confidence in my plans

When do I need to be weak? VII of Wands ” There is a need to open ourselves to fire rather than use it against others or simply to stay on top” “You can make it! you can meet the challenge. Examine resources take your time. Regain balance than act” about the only meaning i can see for this telling me when i need to be weak is that I need to hesitate rather than rushing at my foes. I can succeed as long as I take the breath to see how first. So have confidence to know, i don’t have to be the aggressor in the battle. I am strong enough to take the blows”

What strengthens me? X of Pentacles ” A feeling of security. Now you have a solid base. To reach your point of destiny you must go through the port of satisfaction” “Don’t wait for something to happen. Continue with plans. Further prosperity developing” so the stability of being married and having a family and a stable base strengthens me. Wow i’ve created the life i’m in for all kinds of reasons.

What weakens me? X of Wands ” Drop unnecessary obligations” “Feeling overburdened by obligations” Translation: When too much is going on I feel put upon. It’s not the workload that weakens me as much as the feeling that I shouldn’t be dealing with it

So My strengths are optimism and confidence, Inspiration and Passion, I need to use my strength when there are challenges to be met and the very domesticity I tend to rail against makes me strong.
My weakness tends to be my instinct to want to help others and the fact that tho i have the intuition to know what they need, i can’t always back it up with a chain of logic. I need to use my weakness for others when i am defending myself and them and have to learn when and how to stand up and take the situation first (only after assessing it 😉 ) I have the ability to bounce back from a situation better than most. What wakens me is when I have created a situation where i have taken on too much.

More Thoughts

I saw the musical Les Miserables last night. The production was fine, the music was good to great. Strange, tho looking at things from the spiritual / archetypal point of view, the play can be seen as an alchemical romance between Javert and Jean Valjean. As the final acts in their lives, Javert takes on Valjean’s main quality of mercy and following what he believes morally / ethically correct rather than following the law and Valjean takes on Javert’s qualities of personal responsibility and following the law.

More and more I have been discovering my own power and taking on my role as creator of my own life. I’ve been doing more what I want, creating more on paper and online, meditating and manifesting what I will. It feels very cool. I feel connected to source and that my life is, what were those words that L uses, oh yeah positive and perfect :). The people I have been drawing into my life are wonderful. It feels great!!!

I did one of the best tarot readings I have done in quite some time today for my friend S. Very cool, definitely just channeling the energy. I also got this fantastic star tetrahedron pendulum made out of red tiger’s eye. Not quite sure what the purpose is yet but I will meditate on it and find out.

The power that is out there is infinite. If my energy comes from the universe (my higher self, however you may wish to word it) then it cannot be exhausted, The more energy there is that flows through me, the clearer the channel becoemes and the more energy there will be for me to shine.

Svecchachara Paro is the sanskrit expression that closes the Hindu Avadhoota Upanishad. Svecchara according to wikipedia 😉 means “a way of life where one acts as one wishes and does what is right in one’s own eyes. Doing one’s own Will” “The term “Paro” means a mysterious or secret pattern to that action done by one’s own Will. In other words, we do our Will but with discretion, not making it too obvious, nor to harm or hurt other people. “. Very close to Crowley’s thelemic “Do what thou wilt shalt be the whole of the law”
So far , I don’t know that i have found or thought of anything that works better for me than that.

Svecchachara Paro 😉

Wow, Simple Answers, Upgrade and Evolution

“As you believe so shall you be”
I know I am all powerful and I am all powerful. That has become my reality. If I stay away from people who try to convince me that I have not the power or people who think I am speaking metaphorically, if I believe beyond any disbelief that I am powerful, rich, beautiful, anything that I wish to be than that is what I am. Belief and knowledge beyond doubt is where magic meets quantum physics. If noone ever opens the box to check on the cat than it is the belief that will collapse the wave.

hmmmm

To anyone who would dismiss the above totally out of hand–does your reality make more sense? How is that working for you?

Chariot Reading

0-What am I leaping into at this time of my life?

III-The Empress

The Empress

3-What is my passion?

King of Wands (rev)

King of Wands

 1-Where is the energy, the magic? VII of Wands

VII of Wands

 4-What are the rules?IX of Pentacles

IX of Pentacles

5-What is the Path Laid Out for me?

King of Swords (reversed)

King of Swords

7-Where is it all heading

XII-The Hanged Man (Rev)

Hanged Man

6-How do I express my passion?

VII of Cups (Reversed)

VII of Cups

2-What is secret, hidden or unspoken?

Knight of Wands

Knight of Wands

Interpretation

What am I leaping into at this time of my life? The Empress Creativity, Passion & Love-love in the sense of love for the universe and myself, heart-chakra stuff

Where is the energy? The Magic? VII of Wands“Dynamic, energetic, creative, possibly aggressive. There is a need to open ourselves up to fire” Yep lately I am getting fired up from surrounding myself (at least virtually with creative people and creating myself hmmm as well as creating, myself 🙂

What is secret, hidden or unspoken?Prince of Wands“Adventure, daring, someone energetic and forceful, As a person he can be very charming, confident; card of travel” qualities in myself i keep hidden or unspoken.

What is my passion? King of Wands (Rev)“Tested or in any way confined, he may react angrily; difficult circumstances may cause him to doubt himself”This card is in a strange place but makes an odd kind of sense. I tend to make my life more difficult than it has to be just to challenge myself to get out of situations, is probably one of my biggest ego traps. There is indication that i need to turn my passion around (using my creativity, the Empress is a keynote of the reading) so that i am channeling all the power at my command (which appears to be formidable) rather than dissipate it getting out of situations that I’ve put myself into

What are the rules? IX of Pentacles“Self-discipline, achievement, the possibility of achieving a good life for yourself” So does Gary play by the rules? or act typically? tho in reality I would say that the card is telling me to follow my bliss/follow my contentment.

What is the path laid out for me King of Swords (reversed)“Someone uncomfortable with exercising authority” I know Hillel’s argument way too well to think it refers to using one’s mind for one’s own gain rather than society’s “If I am not for myself, then who shall be for me, If I am only for myself than what am I” So i am not meant to take a leadership role, Cool, not my interest, I’ve always favored being Merlin, rather than Arthur, Gandalf rather than Aaragorn and Duncan Idaho over Paul Atreides

How do I express my passion? VII of Cups (Rev)“”The need to take action on fantasies. A choice might have to be made. Love might not be returned” The things I fantasize about in others, I need to incorporate into myself. I am my own missing piece

Where is it all heading? Hanged Man (Rev) “If the card primarily means being hung up, reversed can signify movement-getting unstuck or the end of a difficult sacrifice, it can mean conforming” It’s pretty difficult imagining that I’ll ever conform to the laws of society so let’s go with becoming unstuck and the end of a difficult sacrifice, it seems a lot will be revealed that I’ve kept hidden and movement forward may happen.
Any other thoughts? Anyone?….

Life is a….

“Life is a tragedy for those who feel, but a comedy to those who think.” Horace Walpole
So does that make life a…
soap opera for those who emote?
a horror film for those who fear?
a inspirational feel-good flick for those who aspire?
a surrealistic dali-esque landscape for those who dream?

🙂

Who’s directing this thing anyway?
SCRIPT!!!!!

aw who am i kidding

I run the show.

Living without a script :)

So self-knowledge is a good thing. Today I learned that i seem to need a script when i vlog 🙂
Hey that’s not a bad idea:

Things I learned or relearned today:

1. Talking about treating emotions as part of the universal climate tends to be easier than living it.
2. When dealing with emotional storms, if detachment does not come easily, a sense of humour can make a pretty good umbrella. If you seem to have trouble activating your own sense of humour, make contact with some goofy friends, hey make contact with me, finding the funny for other people tends to be a specialty. 🙂
3. As Creators, we all do a pretty good job at manifesting what we need to grow. Faith in oneself seems to be a good quality to cultivate
4 Hot dogs , Baked Beans and salad is a fast easy supper that kids love.
5. Sometimes the full moon can manifest in a beautiful red colour.
6. We all create our lives. Some of us (maybe even many of us) do it less consciously than others. Some of us create complex character-driven sagas, I tend to veer between surrealism and sit-com myself 😉
7. We can all manifest exactly what we want. I feel awed, heartened, terrified, and wonder-struck by that. The trick seems to be figuring out which part of us seems to be doing the wanting. What does our ‘truest selves’ need to grow. If the universe is positive and perfect…and it is…and we are in the driver’s seat (which we are) than why not try to tune ourselves to the universe and trust in that positivity and perfection?
8. I have been truly unimaginative in how I have used chocolate all these years. This will make perfect sense to perhaps four people and hopefully stimulate the imagination of many more. 🙂