Tarot Judgement (Awakening) Reading

Again–The idea of 1 (or 2) spreads for each major arcana card is taken (as are the spreads) from Rachel Pollack’s excellent book Tarot Wisdom. As often as possible I am using the textual definitions from Ms Pollack’s book as otherwise there exists a possibility of skewing the meanings to serve my own ends rather than get any insight into what the cards are showing me. Recently I have also been taking (for the minor arcana) cards some of the textual definitions from Eileen Connolly’s Tarot: The First Handbook for the Master. Way back when I started working with the cards Ms. Connolly’s Tarot for the Apprentice was one of the first books I used.

Since then, I have had a new insight. That if the goal of these readings is a greater internal knowledge and understanding these forces then subjectivity may just be the way to go. Still I will give Ms Pollack’s and Ms. Connolly’s definitions because I feel it may be useful for anyone reading this to follow along.

This week we come to Judgement. I’ve been looking forward to this one. In so many ways, the idea of waking up to oneself after being awhile in the ground or sleeping or however you wish to put it intrigues me. Perhaps. it reflects what’s been going on in my life. Part of me wants to figure how to take it to the next level. I’m feeling an affinity for this card of late….

1) What is the hidden question of Justice? IX of Pentacles <IX of Pentacles
2) How can I answer it? VIII of Wands VIII of Wands
3) What calls me to rise up / become something new? King of Pentacles King of Pentacles
4) What can I become? VI of Wands VI of Wands
5) How can my life change? The Hanged Man Hanged Man
6) What/Who will change around me? The Moon The Moon
7) How am I called to answer? Knight of Cups Knight of Cups

Spread Layout

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5

6

3

4

1

2

Interpretation

1) What is the hidden question of Judgement? IX of Pentacles

“According to some you have all you need. Past life memory is silent, yet you know there has to be more”

“You are doing quite well. No need to confide. Eventually silent karma will be a reality”

“Do not isolate yourself. Look at possible new interests. A substantial offer made if accepted will change your life style” (EC pg 286)

“Self-discipline, achievement, the possibility to create a good life for yourself” (RPTW pg373)

Hmmm, please word your answer in the form of a question. What would be the hidden question of judgement?  How do I pass it on? If I have good fortune, what do I do with it? How can I feel worthy? How can I pass it on?  Also to me feeling gratitude for everything that has come my way, even the hard lessons.Also how can I be satisfied no matter what comes my way? How do I accept bad and good as being the working out of a perfect universe? Those questions echo through my head with this card.

2) How can I answer it? VIII of Wands

“Get everything in order. Be ready for action. Good news coming fast. You may need extra funds. cut spending.”

“Coping isn’t everything. You should be busy organizing so that you can move forward.” (EC p218)

Overall with this card , there is a feeling of rapid forward positive motion and plans moving forward in a positive way. and maybe that would be the answer to what to do with success and how to be worthy of success given, forward motion in an organized way, not striving but not stopping, leaning into the flow of the river so to speak and allowing the forward motion to happen rather than slowing it down…

3) What calls me to rise up / become something new? King of Pentacles

“Wealth, success comfort security. He may focus on material things but more with satisfaction and pride then selfishness or obsession”

“Grounding ideas in solid reality, speaking about what you know from your own experience” (RPTW p 433)

This card when it has shown up for readings in the past almost always refers to my father. This makes quite a bit of sense when you consider how much of what I have done in my life has been in response to my perceptions of my father’s views and opinions, of me. The fact that lately, despite what I have earned and done in the last 6-8 years fostering, etc. he has still been basically asking when I intend to get a real job rankles. The fact that he echos an internal voice of mine increases the pressure but again given the other two cards so far, right movement at the right time and appreciating my success with forward movement….

4) What can I become? VI of Wands

“Compliments and admiration of your ability bring you to the winning post. Time to do what you do best. Success and more”

“Are you doing what you really want to do? Follow your heart that is where your future lies”

“Explore and expand potential. Don’t get too wrapped up with mundane obligations. Spread your winds and fly.” (EC p 214-215)

Other meanings talk about well-recognized and hard won victories and indeed 6 would be the hear of an endeavor, so I will find my way to the heart of things and be triumphant. If I learn my lessons and use my motivation in an organized way that allows movement forward.

5. How can my life change? The Hanged Man

“It can mean being stuck, facing a painful sacrifice. ”

“The querent …may be an outsider, or with different values than other people, with no push to convince others and no need to seek other’s approval. Being tied to the tree means being connected to something outside yourself.”

“For people on a spiritual path, it may signal a moment of illumination or an actual initiation experience” (RPTW pg 155)

Two things come up with this card in this position for me. Sacrifice and being at rest or zeroed, in other words meditation. What needs to be sacrificed?  A lot of excuses and a lot of rationalizations, anger, impatience, any illusions I may have that what I feel has causes outside my being. Also a certain amount of laziness, certain activities seem to be kicking into high gear for me. I can ride the wave or get wiped out and have to jump back on my board.

As far as being at rest and zeroed, i find meditation so incredible these days, letting myself go into rest, coming out energized, inspired and inspiring.

Still, and here the halfway nature of the Hanged Man comes in, and the fact that lines and paths have infinite nature, no matter where I feel I may be on the path, I can look in any direction, where I’ve come from, where I have yet to go, and all the possibilities untraveled and see the infinite. No matter where I may be, it seems to be the zero point. I have traveled an infinite distance,  I still have that far to go. The journey already exists, whole and complete.

6) What/ Who will change around me? The Moon

“The Moon might indicate a difficult passage in someone’s life when powerful emotions or fears get stirred up”

“More positively, we can see the Moon as dreams, intuition and psychic development. It also means subtlety and sensitivity” (RPTW p.221)

Cycles of growth and learning, things continue to change, Illusions, myths, symbols and yet cyclical. This card would almost be worrisome, yet thanks to friends in the last year I have come to understand the Moon a bit better. I also wish to work more closely with these archetypes and am working a bit more on a course of study that will bring me into direct contact with them….

7) How am I called to answer? Knight of Cups

“Air of water could indicate the mind moving over the unconscious, stirring up deep feelings” (RWTW p 411)

“The Knight of Cups awakens the heart through the power of water, the energy of waves and currents. He is the lord of the deep places in each of us and the champion of our secrets”

Hmmm, I could imagine much worst cards in this position for an aspiring writer/artist to get. So is that it. Champion of secrets, the things we hold deep within us. Again tho, this possible link with the shamanistic stuff. … Still the journey remains interesting….


Tarot-Sun Reading

Again–The idea of 1 (or 2) spreads for each major arcana card is taken (as are the spreads) from Rachel Pollack’s excellent book Tarot Wisdom. As often as possible I am using the textual definitions from Ms Pollack’s book as otherwise there exists a possibility of skewing the meanings to serve my own ends rather than get any insight into what the cards are showing me. Recently I have also been taking (for the minor arcana) cards some of the textual definitions from Eileen Connolly’s Tarot: The First Handbook for the Master. Way back when I started working with the cards Ms. Connolly’s Tarot for the Apprentice was one of the first books I used.

Since then, I have had a new insight. That if the goal of these readings is a greater internal knowledge and understanding these forces then subjectivity may just be the way to go. Still I will give Ms Pollack’s and Ms. Connolly’s definitions because I feel it may be useful for anyone reading this to follow along. By all means feel free to comment.

So this week- Spread for the Sun Card.

1) What is clear in my life? ( This could also be for a specific issue) VII of Pentacles (Rev) RWPentaclesSeven
2) What is cloudy? The High Priestess (Rev) High Priestess
3) What helps me see clearly? King of Swords King of Swords
4) What confuses me? Page of Pentacles

(REV)

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5) How can I simplify my life? (or the issue at hand) IX of Swords IX of Swords

Interpretation

1) What is clear in my life? VII of Pentacles (Rev)

“Are you heading in the right direction? Financial concern will cause anxiety for you and others concerned. Hold back at this time. Don’t Discard plan. Use Later”

“Anxiety enjoys impatience. It can manifest disaster that much sooner. Not a good time for rash decisions”

“Recoup, resist new business ventures at this time. You must continue to look for answers” “The art of problem solving is to avoid the need. Wait till you can think clearly. Too much interference”

The one thing that comes up for me with this card would be that it indicates lack of satisfaction with progress. Indeed, even tho writing wise, I’ve been more productive in the last few months than in the several years previous, I feel I want something to point to that feels concrete. “I made so much money doing that” or just the whole idea of being a productive member of the household. I mean on some level I know that I produce, that I do a lot but it doesn’t feel the same. And yet, the card (and my own feelings say this situation won’t change in the near future. So I need to look at the longer view, write, create, meditate and then given the time, see what will happen.)

2) What is cloudy? The High Priestess (Rev)

“Reversed, the High Priestess may call on us to get involved again in the world, especially if we’ve spent a time cut off from people, exploring our inner lives. There is a certain seductiveness in her silence, her separation but if we stay too long in that state we find it hard to get back our lives, our responsibilities, our relationships. The reversed cards can remind us to be passionate, to commit ourselves to something or someone.” (RPTW p49-50)

OK, so what I get from this appears to be that I am too cut off from people and need to find a way to reconnect. In the position it comes in would be that I feel  hazy about how to connect and in what ways I should. If you count computer connections and Internet friends, I probably connect more than at any other time in my life…. Tho I feel that I need to get out more and do….and do…and do…what. I dunno yet. I feel an answer on the horizon tho.

3) What helps me see clearly? King of Swords

In Rachel Pollack’s book “Haindl Tarot: A Reader’s Handbook” she explains that Haindl based his King of Swords card on the Egyptian Sun god Ra. She describes what Ra can teach us as:

“Ra teaches us about power…he does not do this passionately or arbitrarily. Instead he emphasizes thought and clear decision. Ra teaches us that we should establish rules and systems, and be harsh and merciless if someone breaks these rules. At the same time, he teaches us to respect the rules ourselves, and acknowledge or reward others who respect them as a way of honouring us” (HT p 168)

Hmmm, basically use the same methods I used to quit smoking. I made up such a convoluted system of tapering off, when I could have a drag, when I had to wait 5 more minutes…until after 3 days I got sick of it and never had a cigarette again. I know that I can live with rules I make for myself especially in the moment (general rules are a little tougher 🙂 Maybe I need to decide that for each 30 minutes I spend on YouTube, or some other “fun” activity, I have to spend that much time writing or cleaning and match that with exercise and outdoor activity.”

4. What confuses me? Page of Pentacles (Rev)

“All her dedication and insight fail to reach their proper audience. Unable to inspire others or communicate ..knowledge (s)he can become frustrated, and as a result, depressed or filled with doubt.”

“It might help  .. to find a different situation or a different group of people” (HT p. 177)

“Wow as far as two of the things confusing me lately this seems spot on. I seem to have some qualms in the realm of earthly success. Despite earning a decent income (mainly due to fostering) I have not had anything I could point to materially and say “This has brought me and my family financial success”  I have a father who asks me on a constant basis whether I’ve decided to start working and whether I’m bored 🙁  Anyway doubts do come, about whether I have an audience, whether what I write (or video) is any good or whether people can relate to it….I have been expanding the number of people I intereact with tho and that has felt pretty great.

5. How can I simplify my life (or the issue at hand)? IX of Swords

“Problems have accumulated one thing leads to another. Difficult to be objective. Worry, Pressure, Pain. Feel overwhelmed and alone”

“Share your feelings. You will receive love and support. Feelings of helplessness. Don’t know which way to turn. Health concerns. Sickness Tragic circumstances”

Can I blame a cloudy Sun reading like this on Mercury being Retrograde? No, I didn’t think so. OK, basically objectivity is called for, talking things out and just riding it through. It looks like my life may simplify but not in the easiest of ways.  Well will ride it through and try to manifest the King of Swords as clearly as possible to find my way….