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Power and Responsibility (A consciousness stream)

 

“You become responsible, forever, for what you have tamed.”
― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

 

What have you tamed? Have you tamed your restless spirit and let it find a home? Have you tamed your mind ever exploding in a million directions with ideas that seem either equally good or preposterous depending on your mood? Have you tamed another and made them a pet? Who so takes responsibility for another rather than teaching them to be responsible for themselves?
I tamed my wandering nature…and taught it to stay still.
I tamed my despair…allowing it to leave as it came and myself to know it did not have to tray.
I tamed my anger…learning how to express it.
so many parts still run wild within me. For I am not ready to take responsibility for them.
My inertia I blame on distractions.
My envy I blame on the accomplishment of others.
my lack of focus i blame on so much being so interesting.
One day I will take ownership and even that ownership I will tame.
I know that true power comes from responsibility and is a byproduct thereof
I just have to allow myself that power..
Blessings, G

 

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Born Enough

 

“we can never be born enough.”
― ee Cummings

 

It’s E E Cummings birthday and he wrote so much mind blowing poetry that influenced me over the years that finding just the right quote by him for the blog tonight was a bit of a chore. It was tempting to use ““most people are perfectly afraid of silence”
and nothing else in the entry but that felt like cheating somehow. Instead I used this quote about being born enough. I’ve written about this before about each moment bringing us the chance to recreate ourselves anew and each moment being a new birth. It is the ultimate in taking responsibility and might not be for all. However the alternative. “Oh that was enough birth for me. I will never need anything new or different in my life again.” I couldn’t imagine saying that at 90 or 100 never mind now. With each moment a rebirth and with each day a new beginning.
Blessings, G

 

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Realizing the Choice

 

“These ideas can be made more concrete with a parable, which I borrow from John Fowles’s wonderful novel, The Magus.

Conchis, the principle character in the novel, finds himself Mayor of his home
town in Greece when the Nazi occupation begins. One day, three Communist
partisans who recently killed some German soldiers are caught. The Nazi commandant gives Conchis, as Mayor, a choice — either Conchis will execute the three partisans himself to set an example of loyalty to the new regime, or the Nazis will execute every male in the town.

Should Conchis act as a collaborator with the Nazis and take on himself the
direct guilt of killing three men? Or should he refuse and, by default, be responsible for the killing of over 300 men?

I often use this moral riddle to determine the degree to which people are hypnotized by Ideology. The totally hypnotized, of course, have an answer at once; they know beyond doubt what is correct, because they have memorized the Rule Book. It doesn’t matter whose Rule Book they rely on — Ayn Rand’s or Joan Baez’s or the Pope’s or Lenin’s or Elephant Doody Comix — the hypnosis is indicated by lack of pause for thought, feeling and evaluation. The response is immediate because it is because mechanical. Those who are not totally hypnotized—those who have some awareness of concrete events of sensory space-time, outside their heads— find the problem terrible and terrifying and admit they don’t know any ‘correct’ answer.

I don’t know the ‘correct’ answer either, and I doubt that there is one. The
universe may not contain ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ answers to everything just because Ideologists want to have ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ answers in all cases, anymore than it provides hot and cold running water before humans start tinkering with it. I feel sure that, for those awakened from hypnosis, every hour of every day presents choices that are just as puzzling (although fortunately not as monstrous) as this parable. That is why it appears a terrible burden to be aware of who you are, where you are, and what is going on around you, and why most people would prefer to retreat into Ideology, abstraction, myth and self-hypnosis.

To come out of our heads, then, also means to come to our senses, literally—to live with awareness of the bottle of beer on the table and the bleeding body in the street. Without polemic intent, I think this involves waking from hypnosis in a very literal sense. Only one individual can do it at a time, and nobody else can do it for you. You have to do it all alone.”
― Robert Anton Wilson

 

Difficult questions
keep me awake debating
No easy answers

 

How well can you debate yourself? I don’t mean to the point of inaction tho often I find myself doing this but enough to know that when you make a difficult decision that the alternative has things going for it as well? The questions can present themselves in as simple a way as a person with a sign saying they are homeless and can you help them? Do you walk on by because you have just given change to three other homeless people and now have none? Do you buy them a meal? Are they truly homeless or looking to feed one habit or another? Will giving money foster dependence? In the long run, will a dollar or two change that person’s life? Well it could potentially but in probability? All these questions come up for me each time and I try to choose consciously if not correctly?
The above is an easy question to see the sides of. In reality we probably hit many potential questions just as open each day. Is an awakened life truly one where we know the questions if not the answers? Asking them definitely makes for a mindful existence.
Blessings, G

 

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Opening Moves

 

“You haven’t yet opened your heart fully, to life, to each moment. The peaceful warrior’s way is not about invulnerability, but absolute vulnerability–to the world, to life, and to the Presence you felt. All along I’ve shown you by example that a warrior’s life is not about imagined perfection or victory; it is about love. Love is a warrior’s sword; wherever it cuts, it gives life, not death.”
― Dan Millman

 

Open my heart enough to bleed
Open my eyes enough to cry
Open my arms enough to hug and be hugged
Open my mouth enough to laugh
or speak of my pain and joy
Putting up a front is easy
Building a wall
to say nothing of the words in which I’m armoured
Words of comfort and joy
Words that speak of a serenity
I have yet to find
and an equanimity that eludes me
I will speak of my pain
and own it
It was my gift to myself to grow
I am no one’s victim
just a being searching for a way in
Or perhaps a way out.

— GAR

 

Blessings, G </h4?

 

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Broken CastlesBroken Castles by G A Rosenberg

 

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Path or Direction?

“A path is only a path, and there is no affront, to oneself or to others, in dropping it if that is what your heart tells you . . . Look at every path closely and deliberately. Try it as many times as you think necessary. Then ask yourself alone, one question . . . Does this path have a heart? If it does, the path is good; if it doesn’t it is of no use.”
― Carlos Castaneda

 

I have reread this passage many times and put a lot of thought into it. Tonight it struck me in a new way. If as I’ve talked about before, our path is not one that we follow as much as one we choose each step of the way then maybe it is not so much about choosing a path with heart as choosing to have heart in every part of our path. That is choosing each step we take with commitment and yes with love. The distinction may be a fine one but of late I have been investigating the concept of responsibility. Maybe I’m just paraphrasing the line from Sondheim that it is not so much do what you like as like what you do. To me that also ties in with the Thelemic law of ‘Do what Thou Wilt’. If we are making choices according to our true will than those choices will by their very nature be ones that are heart-filled.
Blessings, G

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Buffeted by Cosmic WindsBuffeted by Cosmic Winds by G A Rosenberg

 

Answer His Question2Answer His Question by G A Rosenberg

We Are All Magicians

“Not only do we all have magic, it’s all around us as well. We just don’t pay attention to it. Every time we make something out of nothing, that’s an act of magic. It doesn’t matter if it’s a painting or a garden, or an abuelo telling his grandchildren some tall tale. Every time we fix something that’s broken, whether it’s a car engine or a broken heart, that’s an act of magic.

And what makes it magic is that we *choose* to create or help, just as we can choose to harm. But it’s so easy to destroy and so much harder to make things better. That’s why doing the right thing makes you stronger.

If we can only remember what we are and what we can do, nobody can bind us or control us.”
― Charles de Lint, The Mystery of Grace

 

Have you created anything today? Have you written a poem or filled the air with music? Have you raised a smile on someone’s face where there wasn’t one before? Have you drawn a picture or made a mud pie or established a business transaction? Congratulations if you have done any of these or about a million other things than you are a magician. You have created something out of nothing and that kicks ass. It’s amazing the number of things we can bring into this world that can make it a better place. There is also negative magic where we create something that is intentionally harmful and unfortunately many of us do this without realizing our power. It’s amazing the amount of power we have for happiness or sorrow. So often we feel powerless and all too often that is an excuse because we are frightened of just how much we wield.
Blessings, G

 

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The Responsibility of Understanding

“You have to take seriously the notion that understanding the universe is your responsibility, because the only understanding of the universe that will be useful to you is your own understanding.”
― Terence McKenna

 

In my experience the easiest way to feel ripped off is to give someone else the responsibility of understanding and transmitting how the universe works and yet we do this all the time. When I say this comes from my experience I do not exaggerate. When I was younger I tried to pan this job off on anybody. First on the rabbis, then all of the great atheistic teachers, then the Moonies, the Charismatic Christians, C. S. Lewis and various friends and religious leaders of all stripes. Each time I felt betrayed and finally gave up on anyone else’s interpretation defining reality for me.
Once I did this, the fun truly began. Not beholden to any one person I could learn from all and pick and choose my interpretation and my understanding. This yielded both a wider perspective and appreciation for all but also a greater understanding of the universe as a whole. Never again will any one interpretation do.
Blessings G

 

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Her Thoughts Stormy and WindtornsmHer Thoughts Storms and Windtorn by G A Rosenberg

 

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Journey to Forgiveness

“It’s not an easy journey, to get to a place where you forgive people. But it is such a powerful place, because it frees you.”
― Tyler Perry

 

I know many people who had very painful childhoods. Either mistreated or neglected by their parents or others, they carried pain around with them for years. I don’t mean physical pain of course but those emotional scars that make intimate  connections with others so difficult. They know the cause of their problems but in many cases they are unable or unwilling to do the work necessary to get past this, Most often because they have  not yet learned to forgive.

Many of them will say they have forgiven their parents or others whom they identify as their victimizers. Many will say forgiven but not forgotten. They then will recount at length painful event after painful event in which they were the victim perpetuating both their role and reinforcing the memory adding yet one more crime to be forgiven, one more link in the chain that connects them to their past. Sometimes there is not even an external person whom we hold responsible but ourselves. This was my situation for years.

Forgiving is difficult. It means using our compassion to put ourselves into the heads of someone we’ve feared, hated or both for years and understanding why the do what they do. It means taking responsibility for our present and realizing that that was then, this is now and we are not going to let our past or the people in it keep us from having the kind of present and future that we deserve. Those are the true first steps to our liberation.
Blessings, G

 

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Tarot Post – Eight of Swords

 

 

Eight of Swords (Interference)

 

Eight of SwordsEight of Swords (Revised) by G A Rosenberg

 

Trapped by unknown fear
Freedom awaits opened eyes
Terror melts away

 

Tied at my own direction
Doing things for my own protection
not what I want
but I aim to please
they like me when I’m on my knees
or that’s what I feel
tho its not real.

 

If I live only
by another’s choice
If I refuse to use my voice
within my trap I start to smile
roped and chained I can revile
those to whom I give the key
hell its easier than being free

 

So the victim by distraction
of my chosen interaction
could free myself by sight or sword
but really where in that’s reward?
fulfilment I might have to claim
if all others lose the blame

— G A Rosenberg

 

The suit of Swords represents thought, ideas, plans and conflicts. Eights deal with recognition of boundaries and a focus of the energies to move on and continue. What happens when thoughts and conflicts get in the way of moving on? We finally have decided to leave our past behind and move on to something new. We gird ourselves to take the first steps. The phone rings. A friend of ours needs our help with a trivial matter. We talk them through it and get ready to get to work. The dogs start barking or the kids need to be picked up at school. We’ll take care of that and get right to what we need to get done. Hmmm, maybe just check our Facebook first. What? How could he say that? After a heated engagement, we once again return and it’s time to make supper. And so it goes. Wow the whole day has gone by and so little has gotten done? If only there weren’t all these distractions. If only our friends and family could look out for themselves then we could be done with this project already. That is the Eight of Swords energy. We can break our way out of these cycles anytime we want by claiming a space to do the things we need to do and yet we avoid taking the responsibility to do so. This energy also pertains to anytime we use others or our past as an excuse to avoid doing what needs to be done.

 

Astrological Correspondence – Jupiter in Gemini – Jupiter in Gemini energy wants to expand all at once in as many different directions as possible. It is highly energized and fantastic at communication and at starting things but quite often there will be a problem with either focus on one idea or follow through even if the focus can be found. Quite often it gives us a wide reach but not a far one. In this case as in many others, the inherent problems of the aspect also come with a gift. While focus may be a problem, the Jupiter in Gemini energy does show discernment into what is a minor issue and what is not, allowing us to perceive real issues as opposed to petty concerns.

 

I Ching Correspondence – 21) – Shi He – Biting Through (Eradicating)

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The trigram for Fire is over that of Thunder. Lightning when it follows Thunder removes what is in its path. Likewise when we feel obstacles in our way, we may just have to bite down resolutely and get through them. Most of the obstacles we find in our path are minor and easily pushed aside. This becomes more difficult when the obstacles are the every day kind that are presented by family and friends either wanting our time or attention. However in order to get something done, we have to bite down (bite the bullet) and be resolute. Sometimes with our loved ones this means being compassionate but firm. We don’t wish to dissolve the relationships just free up our time so that we can get the task done

 

The Eight of Swords in a reading often points out that we are letting ourselves get distracted from what we need to do by minutiae both internal and external. People quite often with the best of intentions might be getting in our way either with advice (either giving or receiving) or with favours that need doing. The distractions may be internal as well as external and this card can often be a call to focus on the important things, freeing ourselves from the things that seek to bind or distract us. When we do find other things or people pulling focus, it is often human nature to blame them rather than taking responsibility for our own choices. This card may also mean that we have doubts that we can get the job done even to the point of pretending we don’t care.

 

When the Eight of Swords turns up reversed in a reading, it may mean that we are too focused on the task at hand and need to take a break to return with fresh eyes. It can also mean an even stronger sense of avoiding responsibility and refusing to do what is expected of us even by ourselves. It may mean that we have stopped blaming others for our inability to get things done and have taken the bull by the horns.

Of Limits and Imaginary Lines…

“From this hour I ordain myself loos’d of limits and imaginary lines.”
― Walt Whitman

 

Since I talked about courage last night, tonight I thought for sure I’d be speaking about brains or a heart or even i ride in a balloon but it looks like there is more to say about freedom. Walt Whitman knew of the imaginary lines we draw or have drawn for us out of the good intentions for others, defining who we are and the appropriate paths our lives and or conversations might take. Oh one or two of those lines, we are told, will show us direction and it won’t feel so bad or be so heavy, rather like silk. But then once we allow those first chains (let’s call them the minimum) , those of parents and school / society, it becomes all too easy to start accepting more until what was once silk has become steel or wired ropes that bind and constrain until we end up bound in our actions and thoughts.

What happens when we chafe under these constraints and our lives feel like we’re sleepwalking in a role written for quite a different actor than we find ourselves to be. We can free ourselves but first we need to acknowledge the chains are there and look at each one determining where it came from and being willing to put it aside. The first ones are easy to take off. The hardest ones are the ones that have been there the longest for it is all too easy to confuse them with the free self. Oh they can come off and perhaps our resolution for them to do so is either our truest measure or the measure of our truth.
Blessings, G

 

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Evening FlightEvening Flight by G A Rosenberg

 

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