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Not Where I Left It

 

“The past is never where you think you left it.”
― Katherine Anne Porter

 

Leaving the past behind seems deceptively simple at times. I have long believed it pointless for any adult over the age of 30 or so to cling to hurts real or imagined from one’s childhood and adolescence. I have seen far too many who’s adult lives were choked by resentment and an unwillingness to see themselves as anything but that which was done to them. I’ve worked hard to reconcile my past, forgive whatever there maybe to forgive and leave those parts of my past behind. The key word in the first sentence was deceptively.
Today I was interviewed about my childhood and it was amazing how many memories good and bad came rushing to the surface. Many of them I have dealt with but there were a few things that I had forgotten and the awareness of them was somewhat uncomfortable. It’s a fortunate thing for buried trauma can often lead to treasure and greater awareness. I will never again believe that I have left my past behind for I know I carry it all with me, perhaps not as its victim but definitely as its vehicle into greater understanding and awareness.
Blessings, G

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Organic ClockworkOrganic Clockwork by G A Rosenberg

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Free FlowFree Flow by G A Rosenberg

 

Consequences

 

“People know what they do; frequently they know why they do what they do; but what they don’t know is what what they do does.”
― Michel Foucault

 

I have a talent for self-justification that surprises me at times. I find that I can rationalize my actions with the best of them. Eventually tho around the hundredth time that I lashed out in anger at someone and said the exact thing that would cause the most pain and then saw the distress they were in, it occurred to me that even if I understood the why, I needed to become more aware of the consequences. Words can hurt. Actions can sting and if we can’t anticipate the cost than we need to avoid antee ing ourselves into ply.
Blessings, G
 

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Juggler ClownEnergy Juggler, Clown by G A Rosenberg

 

FlashMind Flash by G A Rosenberg