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Finding An Old Internal Friend

 

“Our going forth to find the greater Self is by the path we know least; by losing ourselves until we find ourselves.”
— Austin Osman Spare- The Logomachy of Zos

 

I know what it is to feel lost. Either through not knowing the right step to take when all the choices look either deceptively good or deceptively bad or by being so flooded by contradictory information that I don’t know which way to turn. As I’ve written before, I have grown somewhat comfortable with not having all the answers and it would be vastly out of character if I was to act as if I did. Yet sometimes the questions feel more crucial. How do I help those I love to feel safe and happy? How can I help others when I don’t know which way to turn? What if after all this time discovering even a part of who I am, I find that that part is not workable in the life that I live? Sometimes it can feel pretty dark yet it is at those times that something astounding happens. I hear a voice inside my head saying “Shhhhhh, it’s not as important as you think and you will make it through.”. That voice, that inner clown mother that tells me I am taking things way too seriously and that the only way to get through anything is just flow through till I make it. If I start drowning, I just need to keep kicking. Either I’ll make it to the surface or I’ll drown trying and that will just be another beginning. Sometimes I don’t have to win, I just have to survive . It’s the giving up that will destroy me. If times are hard for awhile, that’s just what they’ll be. That practical somewhat hopeful side of me is one I haven’t seen for awhile and I’ve missed it. An old internal friend has returned and as long as I keep going will not disappear again.
Blessings, G

 

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Pan in the Techno JunglePan in the Techno Jungle by G A Rosenberg

 

Surrendering Her Passion For MemorySurrendering Her Passion For Memory by G A Rosenberg

 

Quote of the Day – August 14 2012

“You may encounter many defeats, but you must not be defeated. In fact, it may be necessary to encounter the defeats, so you can know who you are, what you can rise from, how you can still come out of it.”
― Maya Angelou

 

One of the most important things I have learned is how to lose my attachment to being right. If the universe is truly impossible to comprehend more than one part at a time as R Buckminster Fuller said than at most anything we say or think will only be part of the whole therefore even when it is mostly right, it is a little bit wrong. If you like learning, it’s awesome, it means there is always more to learn and a more accurate view that can be developed. Of course the question begs to be asked that if you don’t like learning, why did you sign up for this trip in the first place?
Hmmmm I wonder if there’s a lesson in that. I mean if life in the physical on earth is a school and we chose to be here, does that make all of us humans cosmic nerds? There’s something appealing about that thought somehow. 🙂
Blessings, G

 

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Human By Design by G A Rosenberg